I miss you

"Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night."

Today is just one of those days when I really miss my grandma. It's been almost 4 years and so much has changed. I sometimes wonder if things would be different if she was still around. How different? Would my family get along better? Would my relationship with my mom be different? I wonder what would she look like. Would she still be so sick or have gotten better?
And sometimes, I just wish she was around...so she could see me now. Would she be proud of me?

I miss you Mamang.